Monday, April 20, 2009


I've read a few quotes lately that have stuck in my head...

It is not light that we need, but fire; it is not the gentle shower, but thunder. We need the storm, the whirlwind, and the earthquake.
- Frederick Douglass, 1817 - 1895

(I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE this quote)

No man means all he says, and yet very few say all they mean, for words are slippery and thought is viscous.
- Henry Brooks Adams, 1838 - 1918

It seems to me that the soul, when alone with itself and speaking to itself, uses only a small number of words, none of them extraordinary.
- Paul Ambroise Valéry, 1871 - 1945

And on that note, I'll just say that I'm tired and lonely and as much as I don't want company, I don't want to spend tonight alone.

And to all a good night.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

One Long Year

Wow! Hard to believe it's only been a year since "the incident." Most days it feels like a lifetime ago and it still feels like it was just a dream... or more like something someone told me but I didn't really experience for myself.

Although I still don't know for certain all that happened that night, there have been a lot of assumptions, a lot of judgement and a lot of speculation. I have my own opinion of what really happened, but I guess none of that matters anymore.

What does matter is that I've grown a lot over the last year. I feel blessed and thankful for my life, my freedom and my friends who have encouraged and supported and loved me without judgement and without blame.

Friday, April 3, 2009


Is it wrong to want to feel like I'm enough?
I'm so tired of these feelings of inadequacy. I'm sick of my insecurities.